“For I was ashamed to request of the king a band of soldiers and horsemen to protect us against the enemy along the way, because we had told the king, the hand of our God is upon all them for good who seek Him, but His power and His wrath are against all those who forsake Him.” Ezra 8:22
I discovered today’s verse while in search of scriptues regarding fasting, verse 21 discusses that, but I was intrigued by this verse because it says Ezra was ashamed.
As a little back story, the Jews had been in captivity in Babylon for 70 years. King Cyrus had decided to free them and let them go back to Jerusalem. In this verse Ezra states that he was ashamed to ask the king for protection on that journey. He said that because he had told the king that God would protect them, but why was he ashamed? Shame is generally associated with something you are embarrased about.
In praying and meditating over this it seems to me that Ezra is not saying he was ashamed before Cyrus, but he was ashamed before God. This showed his humanity, he thought about the earthly protection needed when he had the Creator of the universe watching over them. Don’t I do the same thing?
I should be ashamed when I think of how to handle all these earthly things that entangle me, like finances, health, relationships and all other things that cross my path. We are all on a journey every day through this life and for believers we have the Creator of the universe on our side.
Verse 31 states – “The hand of our God was upon us, and He delivered us from the enemy and those who lay in wait by the way.” Praise God He protected them and He will do the same for us.